Saturday, 14 October 2017

Taking a Break


Let's have an honest chat. Not that any chat we've had before has been dishonest, but you know what I mean. Pull up a chair, grab a macaron or any other baked good of choice, and let's get cracking, shall we?

This past year has been amazing. I've done things I never thought I could. I've seen new places, I've made new friends, I've done new things, I've pushed myself out of my comfort zone and I've got stuff done. You'll hear all about it in my annual recap.

But it's also been really, really tough in terms of blogging, vlogging, and general social media-ing... and according to people I've asked, I've been good at covering it up (that'll be thanks to scheduled posts) which I was happy to hear. But it's got to a point where I'm down to one scheduled post, and I have absolutely no motivation or ideas. It's not something I'm able to cover up anymore. And after thinking about it, I don't think I should have to.

The thing is, I've been blogging for a long time, and the majority of that time has been spent blogging about the same thing: books. After a while, you're bound to hit a wall - and it seems I have. I've been denying it to myself for months. It really, really pains me, because I don't know where I'd be without this blog. It's been the biggest part of my life for the majority of my life, and it's scary when that changes. I mean, there was a point when I was at my worst, health-wise, where blogging was all I did. It got me through the day. Go in my bedroom (ahem, that's not an invitation) and nearly everything you see came directly or indirectly from my blog. Look at my shelves and it's the same story. Look at my group of friends and, yep, most of them are people I met through this blog. Things I've done, places I've visited, achievements I've made? Again, mostly thanks to my little slice of Internet. Even the completion of my A Levels was made possible thanks to this place.

And I haven't read a book in months. Don't get me wrong, there are loads that I want to read, but I'm always busy with other things, or exhausted after a full day at work, and as much as I love books and blogging and all the things that come with that - they just don't slot in anymore, not at the moment.

I've been delaying writing this blog post for the longest time, but the fact that I've been so constantly aware of it in the back of my mind for that period shows me that deep down, I know it's something I have to do. In over a decade of doing this blogging malarkey, I've only had one break, and that was in summer 2012. Five years ago.

This isn't the end. There are blog posts I'm excited to write, like the one about my trip to Paris, my annual recap, and my upcoming week of work experience at a publishing house. And when I get out of this reading slump I'm sure I'll be excited to write reviews again too, especially as it's been such a long time since my last one.

But at the moment, I'm in desperate need of a break from the pressure I put on myself. I can't keep pushing out a blog post and a video every week just for the sake of it, faking a smile when I'm not actually enjoying it as much as I used to. I need to take a step back, figure out what I want, and get my creativity back. I'll still be posting (like I said: Paris!) but I won't be pressuring myself to get something out there once a week. It'll be as and when it comes.

I'm sorry if this disappoints anyone, but it has to be done. I'll still be around, just not as frequently for the moment, and you can always find me over on Instagram and Twitter. I hope you understand.

See you again soon. ❤

6 comments:

  1. I completely understand where you're coming from, Amber!

    Since starting A-levels I've also struggled trying to find time - and motivation - to blog. I've only felt super inspired to blog this past month and I've managed to produce some content that I'm actually proud of for a change, and although I've loved it, it also made me realise how time consuming book blogging is. I've been blogging a lot this past week which has left no time for reading. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO BALANCE EVERYTHING. XD

    Don't put pressure on yourself and just do what's best for you! I'll miss your posts but we'll all be here when you want to start posting again. <3

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  2. I've been feeling stretched too thin, too, lately. I have decided to pick up my music career again because I am planning an early retirment next year from my day job, and I want something to make a little fun money with. Between work, blogging, and practicing something has got to give, and it's the blog. I'm still going to blog every week, but one post will be my weekly wrap-up (which might turn into a fortnightly post), that will also have IRL stuff, and one will be just showing the cover of a book I am interested in reading. I am not going to be requesting or reading ARCs next year, so I will only be doing a once a month Stacking the Shelves.

    Do you think you might do a once a month wrap-up vlog post, with a mixture of thibgs? I mean, at this point I think your followers would want to know what and how you are doing, beyond the bookish content. <3

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  3. I relate to this so much, I'm doing my Leaving Cert this year, it's very similar to A Levels and I feel that my blog is going to suffer due to lack of time and inspiration. Take a break and come back, you'll find your spark again.
    Róisín
    totallyro.blogspot.ie

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  4. You take care of yourself!
    Cora ❤ http://www.teapartyprincess.co.uk/

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  5. Everyone needs a break once in a while ❤

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  6. Good for you! Follow your passion. Be happy.

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